I’ll go weeks feeling good then the fuckin itch starts.
Always when I think I’m past it this happens. Have to try and find some other action to take to stop this fucking thought process that always seems to reoccur after weeks of commitment. It’s just hard to explain.
It’s like someone who continuously knocks on the door but the knocking gets harder & harder, louder & louder until you just fucking answer it.
Miserable.
Already know I have to get my life right but then this shit comes and just adds on top of it.