HIS Radeon R9 290x Blackscreen issue fixed? maybe.

After about 4 months of owning the videocard the black screen issue started and went from only here & there to black screening as soon as in game.

After BIOS update to ASUS mainboard and trying AMD Videocard drivers 14.4 WHQL, 14.7 RC3, 14.9 WHQL, 14.9.1 Beta & 14.9.2 Beta the issue was unresolved.

Then figured must be voltage settings either by the mainboard ram or CPU adjusted these still not resolved. Then thought bad Vram or system memory did tests all good.

Next let’s see how hot the Video card gets. AMD’s peak allowed temp is 95c after this it drops to lower frequency to stop hardware damage from heat.
Vcard idle stays stable at 34c. During peak gameplay 30 minutes to 1 hour GPU only peaked at 65c Game tested was Shadow Of Mordor with updated texture pack. Figured this game will get the card peaked. So heat isn’t the issue. Almost wish it were at this point.

Re-seated system memory and Video card and noticed that the videocard is sagging pretty badly. Made a make shift platform for the card to sit on in the case.
Did a complete wipe of any AMD driver or software including manual registry removals. And installed the 14.9 WHQL driver set from http://www.amd.com

So far the black screening has stopped but i’m still not going to say it fixed the issue will wait and see. I do know the weight of the heatsink and fans on the PCI-E slot isn’t a good thing.

Update 11/30/2014

I should of posted when I found the issue under month ago just been busy.
The issue with black screen is power supply even though I have a dedicated 450W PSU and a 550 PC PSU.
The 3.3v was dropping below 3.0. Those with this issue check you outputs on all PSU’s installed in your PC. This resolved my problem haven’t had a black screen again.

45th day and fucked up.

Found 2 damn 30mg Codine pills in one of my non-narc med bottles. Of course like an ass without thought I ate em:-(
Codine isan’t really a narc until liver processes it then it becomes morphine.

Fuckin really thought I was past this bullshit. Set back on 45th day just stupid funny when I saw them I didn’t hesitate to take em. 2 seconds after I felt terrible about it.
Sucks ass thought I was stronger than that.

It really helps when I post this shit here. I don’t do any of those damn NA/AA deals I just know how drugs work on the brain & body and  withdrawal faith and god can’t fix it. Plus could never stand in a crowd of strangers that see me and say these things.

Day’s & more days

All the things I’ve done haunt me. Somewhere between 22 and now something broke. Then mom died I couldn’t even say goodbye.

My children have seen such bad things and they came from my actions.
I can’t fix the past this I know but i’m going to try to make the future better. It’s hard I still miss opis makes me feel so guilty I think i’m actually in love with it.and even consider putting it before my Wife & children or well being.
I’ve seen 5-6 people I was close with 1 being my uncle die from the same monster. It’s the feeling I miss. Everything is wrong, empty feeling and I start sinking.
Today is the worst day I’ve had as far as my seeking no needing to feel something other than this dread & deep depression..

Just wish there was an erase button for life.

Florida tooo long.

Been talking to the wife. I would like to move back to NY.
I understand doesn’t matter where you live it’s what you make of it. I’m not wanting to go because I have a false belief i’ll do better or will make shit better.
I’m tired of just staying for my comfortability zone because it’s just easy. I want to break that and get out I don’t want to be on my death bed and ask myself why didn’t I take real risks. My only answer would be scared of change I like my comfort level.
I know i’d be leaving my children I know they would understand.

It’s not because I blame people here for my bad choices. It’s because I am tired of being a coward scared to make the change. Maybe it is because for 1st time I’ve really looked at me and found out what I am.  Maybe i’ll get eaten alive there and not make a year but at least I can say we tried.
Wife’s place of employment was bought out by Moss which is based in NY so a transfer would most likely be possible.She isn’t 100% convinced but I’m going to keep at it.

Easiest Way to detox at home from Opioids but especially Methadone.

First let me say I know and completely understand how hopeless it feels. Seems like it’s just not possible to get clean how would you function/interact and work being dope sick?! Usually you can’t:-( But I promise that the feeling opioids give of well being is false. I thought I would be miserable when I was clean I quickly maybe not quickly but realized I feel the best I have in a very, very long time. They had me fooled I really thought life without opiates would be hell it takes and takes and deceives like a sneak thief.

Keep this in mind when trying to quit. The more you try and quit & fail the harder it gets the next time. So be 100% sure you want this.

Soooo decided I would share this with others. I know a lot of people are hooked on this shit.
Honestly there isn’t any real easy way to withdrawal I searched for years never found one. You did this to yourself so it’s going to take you to quit. All that pleasure wants to pay you back in pain and suffering.

Short acting Opioids Heroin “Thanks Bayer!!”, Hydromorphone AKA:Dilaudid, Oxys/Roxys, Liquid/bootable Morphine.  Long acting either semi-synthetic or full synthetic Subutex is long acting semi-synthetic Methadone long acting full synthetic. I know there are many others out there but the ones I listed are most used/abused.
I had a dual habit but even still same rules apply only difference is you can kick short acting opioids in a week or so meaning physical WD not mental it still works you constantly. Semi to full Synthetic long acting stores and latches hard to opiate receptors unlike Dilaudid or Heroin active anywhere from 48-72 hours and of course will store in body fat making detox long and drawn out.

Issues with WDS constant fluctuating body temperature, goose flesh, sweats, excessive yawning, watery eyes, night sweats,aching legs to the bone,stomach cramps, diarrheal, vomiting, no sleep, body aches and even full body spasms that’s the worst of the physical side. Most think that’s the worst but nope it’s the mental you may experience racy thoughts all broken up, depression, panic attacks, these mental issues caused from opioid abuse will usually lead right to using again. For me worst was deep depression and racy garbled thoughts was so bad I would spew out words without wanting to. Because my head was just full.

First get 7 days clean you will feel sick on 3rd day “Methadone, Subutex/Suboxone” purchase Loperamide it’s anti-diarrheal medicine this used to be a schedule V narc it’s not any longer “Over the counter now” and it binds to opioid receptors in the gastrointestinal tract. Making you feel better and no more cramps and running to bathroom every 15-20 minutes. Depending on habit take any where from 15-25 pills to start they are only 2mg each and small for a 40-50mg habit. Up to 100 of them for those who are on very high doses or can’t really identify mg with heroin so just start with 20 and take 5 more pills every half hour after until you feel well.
These DO NOT get you high they DO NOT pass the blood brain barrier. But since they bind you will not be sick or high just normal feeling which will make you maybe even uncomfortable in your own skin but that’s a good thing sobriety sucks it’s supposed to. The feeling of self awareness and being will hit hard but as days and weeks pass so will that feeling. Things will get better! Keep that in mind while dealing with detoxing it’ll get you through. All things pass man so hang in there.

Long acting detox works if you also did the other short acting drugs on top of long acting drugs.
If short acting detox best I can say is go to Doctor within 2-3 days and use Loperamide to settle you and still see general practitioner for the non-narcotic drugs I will list down the page a bit.
Especially Heroin, Hydromorphone, Morphine detox its much shorter so the 8 day plan will be all hell for you & wouldn’t work.

on day 5 long acting Methadone, Subutex, Suboxone contact your general practitioner or find one that will then prescribe said opioid and do a slow taper over a month approximately. you should make appointment for your 8th day without any opioids.
Basically short acting users you will cut to 2-3 days you’ll want to get Loperamide before the 2nd day and see Dr by 2nd or 3rd day. Use Methadone for detox NOT Suboxone this goes for every type user. Minus the people who only take Vicodin or Percocet or Tramadol if your addicted to these lower risk narcotics contact your DR and ask how to stop taking them safely..

Minus the taper narcotic all others I list are non-narcotic so no new habit.  Yes, I’ve used xanax for detox but promise it’s not what you want to do. An addict will grab onto that quickly and trust me you don’t want to get hooked on benzos there’s no home recovery for it your hospitalized.

All listed drugs at this point can not be purchased over the counter must see practitioner. Again NON-narcotics except for Methadone taper prescription.

Flexiril: this is for the muscle body aches. I’ve heard people say they are worthless but they aren’t if you take as prescribed during detox. Bottom line there is no miracle drug to make this 100% painless.
But this plan made it manageable it hurt but not like a full cold turkey wd.

Hydroxyzine: this treats anxiety, tension, nervousness, nausea, vomiting, allergies, skin rash, hives, and itching. This medicine is an antihistamine.

Clondine: Treats high blood pressure. A lower blood pressure can reduce the risk of strokes and heart attacks. Also treats attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD). Yes, after physical WDs you can have ADHD type issues it isn’t permanent. And will help you sleep my blood pressure shoots to dangerous levels during detox. High blood pressure is common even in young users.
Prochlorperazine: Treats severe nausea and vomiting. Belongs to a class of drugs called phenothiazines.
I only had to use this maybe 3x the slow detox helped with it. When tried cold Turkey quit 5-6 years ago. I would of loved a bottle of this.

Trazadone: It also helps with sleep when taken with these listed.

Methadone: You will want to start at 10mg less than your last dose and do that for 4 days If your on short acting opiates start at 40mg. By the time you see general practitioner your tolerance will be lowered so tapering from 40mg is perfect. Then tapper accordingly your doctor should make the plan with you. He shouldn’t have an issue prescribing the one time request just don’t expect that he will help you again if you end up abusing it and not following your planned detox. General practitioners DO NOT do Methadone maintenance. If your not ready to be 100% Opiate free contact your local PAR for information on maintaining using Methadone. Which by the way is okay clinic saved me at one point in my life.
You may hear that there is no difference detoxing from 25mg or 5mg that’s bullshit. I know everyone comes off differently but I promise taking last dose of 5mg it didn’t make any difference when I quit because I followed my planned detox.

And for us guys as heavy users we all know that we don’t or just can’t have sex this desire dies pretty quickly followed by a flaccid penis.

Opioids deplete T-levels if your drive doesn’t come back after a few months or Cialis doesn’t work you will need Testosterone treatments. Could also be an underlying issue that opioids disguised.
One of the main reasons I quit I missed sex!
Ask for Cialis not Viagra.

Go to Cialis webpage and get a free month.  http://www.cialis.com/promise-free-trial.aspx

Once you bring these prescriptions to your Doctor he will make a plan using these drugs to detox you. Safely and not quite painlessly.

For methadone users prepare for a long drawn out process but it’s not all at 1x with this plan. Plan on 3 weeks to a month before you feel 80%. Methadone used for long periods is very difficult to copme off of but it can be done I took Methadone for over 10 years. Plus the good shit.

Remember to  take hot showers or bath daily and eat and drink healthy this will help you through as well. This is just as important as the drugs listed to help you. Take a multi-Vitamin daily as well.
try and walk around house or take dog for walk it’ll help you. And be sure to toss your works you know what I mean that shit laying around only brings false feelings of well being making you want to just pop 1 it won’t matter. But it does.

All drugs I listed are cheap except the Methadone & Cialis after 1 month free script you’ll be spending about $200 for 30 5mg pills. The 10 and 20mgs expect to pay $800-$1,000  each script after free month. Methadone is about $2 a pill a pharmacy.

Be careful taking Loperamide in large doses you don’t want to get backed up. I had no issues with that and also tapered off it as well.
Most I took at 1x was 25 pills runs are so bad it just allows for a regular bowl movement will be solid not acid water.
But everyone is different so start small and slowly take more until comfortable.
There are ways to get this to cross blood ,brain, barrier but it’s not that effective so please don’t abuse this because they will pull them from shelves in a second and become a narc V again.

New PC titles

Last few days have been playing Middle Earth Shadow Of Mordor & Ryse Son Of Rome on PC-Steam.
Both are pretty cool combat games very similar as far as combat goes.
They both also use upgrades and XP.

Played the hell out of Mordor very cool game. Ryse is too I’ve played the hell out of it as well. They took quick time events out of Ryse for PC which is a good thing. Biggest issue with XBOne version was the quick time events many complained about it. And PC version also took away micro transactions which is another good thing.

Pisses me off when you pay a premium price for a game and then can’t get the better items unless you pay them more $$. Dead Space 3 did that I loved those games I dumped 3 as soon as I saw they charged for micro transactions.

That is fine if the game is $10-$20 but not when they are $39.99-$59.99 absolutely NOT. Fuckin greedy bastards these games aren’t RPGMMO’s if you want micro transaction make a MMO! Or do free games on IOS/Android and charge for that shit all day long

Alien Isolation is a solid mention it’s more of a hide and survive type game. But creepy and enjoyable although dying over & over again starting in place you last died sucks It’s PC should have manual saves. So save at every save station you can you’ll need to.

Almost forgot and is a fine game as well The Vanishing Of Ethan Carter very cool uses latest UE4 engine I believe? Could be wrong but the visuals outdoors are pretty awesome.It’s a FPS investigation type game with psychic abilities.
Should mention I haven’t beat 1 of the games I mentioned but did put 2-3 hours into each of them over a course of 3-4 days. Ryse and Mordor only last few days for them,

I’ve had a lot of free time lately so pretty cool playing some games but soon back to real life and get a job. And actually hold one:-)


Yesterday actually went to Universal & Island Of Adventure with the family.
I’m slowly feeling better. Had a good time too. Still have good days and bad days its going to take me a few months to feel okay again. But it’s fucking awesome I love not needing anything to just function yesterday was the best day I can remember in years being with wife & kids sober was much more enjoyable. Hopefully we’ll have many more days like yesterday.

Was a hard ride getting here but I stuck that shit out was worth all the pain and sickness.
If I can do it anyone can. Listening to my kids tell me the shit I did was pretty painful especially when Amber found me ODing in my computer chair. It’s not just about me it was hard on them too.
I lied when I said I regret nothing. I wish I could take those years back so they never had to see it.